Hello, I am a 17 year old teenager who for my entire high school life has encountered immense bullying. In 2017 when I was 15 i moved in with my Dad and went to an entirely new state to start high school. There I didn’t fit in at all. I was incredibly lonely but make friends.
However I was bullied for practically 3 years. People used to make fun of my dark skin, body composition( I used to have male boobs and one time a girl noticed them and laughed at me in front of the whole class). I was called Mr.PoPo from dragon ball Z, I was called ugly multiple times. Last year through it was the worst it had ever been. One of my”friends” invited me to a party and when I got there I was immediately called ugly.
It was so bad, almost everyone in that damn party roasted the fuck outta me and called me the ugliest guy alive. It didn’t stop from there either throughout the first half of my junior year multiple people called me ugly. One time a random person in the bathroom looked at me and called me ugly. This one dude called me ugly in front of a bunch of girls too. Practically almost everyone in my classes roasted me and called me ugly. The made fun of my durag all the time and joked about how I never took it off. It was practically a personality trait that I was ugly. It got so bad one time one person told me I’d never find love. Girls even rejected me and called me ugly as well. I remember this one time I joked and kinda flirted with a girl and she said “get away from me”, not only did she say that two people behind me laughed at me for what I did.
I told myself that enough was enough. I got sick and tired of having assholes say things about me so I started working out at the gym and at home. I lose weight, learned about nofap, raised my GPA, learned about cold showers, meditation, and learned about computer programming. I ever got a new haircut and felt really good about myself.
The day after I got a haircut and returned to school it was like I was a different person. Everyone and I mean everyone noticed and gave me compliments. Some people I didn’t even know noticed me. Random girls also found me attractive for the first time in my life.Those bullies were actually nice to be now, but I knew they were all jerks.
During the first few months of quarantine I decided to become better at life than those who bullied me. I confined to learn about programming and math and now am working toward a career in software engineering. I workout 5 days a week and feel almost amazing about myself.
However I’ve developed this insane drive and motivation to prove them wrong. Everyday I wake up I remind myself of what they did to me, and use that as fuel to crush everything in my way. I’m motivated my a huge anger and resentment to become a better individual than those who make fun of me. I think I’m losing myself being this disciplined and motivated but I can’t stop. I honestly want to crush them and be so great in life and career that I can make fun of them the way they did me. Is this bad motivation?
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